The cute culprit.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
No elves were harmed in the destruction of these santa hats
The cute culprit.
Advocacy, it's the least I can try to do
It does not fail that almost every day I am awe struck by another student. Their strength, their untimely wisdom, their courage, will and survival in a variety of circumstances that I can only attempt to understand, but never fully have a sense of their experiences.
I had hoped when I started this blog in August, I believe it was, that I would regularly share stories and experiences of my job as a social worker in an urban school. But, I have been so enraptured in the experience that the little time I have for myself I've used for time with my husband and rest/rejuvenation. The stress and exhaustion that I have experienced this semester is unlike any other job I have had, though. In past jobs, my stress from my work as an outpatient therapist or other social work roles led to burn out, moodiness, extreme fatigue. The stress I have now only promotes my motivation and love of the students I work with and the job I get to do every day.
I am working with many young women who are pregnant, from various backgrounds and with various levels of stability. I have to assist many of these women to ensure they have their basic needs met, some do not have medical coverage to receive prenatal care. A few are at great housing risk, which is obviously very concerning that they and their soon to be born child may be without a warm and stable home. I hear countless stories of survival with abusive parents, mothers who are in relationships with abusive men or drug dealers. So many of my students have lost someone they love to a violent or untimely death.
Yet, most of them continue on, trying as best they can to have a normal and fun high school and adolescent experience. Most students are so determined to get their high school diploma, many the first in their family. All I can really do is listen, support and maybe try to advocate for what they need. I think this is the central core of doing my job well. I have to advocate that a young woman with multiple serious medical issues, now pregnant with a child with many medical issues of his own, should have the computer at home so she can continue with her education. I have to advocate with the teachers who don't know the full picture at home to not be so hard on the student who is a little disruptive that day, because he's just trying to get through the day without thinking about how the issues at home and on the street. I also have to advocate that in an urban, predominantly African-American school, there are students who deserve and need an after school club to feel safe about who they are, including their sexuality.
I feel proud and privileged to be a part of these young people's lives. Working to do whatever they need to support them in obtaining their goals is the least I can do. And I love it.
I had hoped when I started this blog in August, I believe it was, that I would regularly share stories and experiences of my job as a social worker in an urban school. But, I have been so enraptured in the experience that the little time I have for myself I've used for time with my husband and rest/rejuvenation. The stress and exhaustion that I have experienced this semester is unlike any other job I have had, though. In past jobs, my stress from my work as an outpatient therapist or other social work roles led to burn out, moodiness, extreme fatigue. The stress I have now only promotes my motivation and love of the students I work with and the job I get to do every day.
I am working with many young women who are pregnant, from various backgrounds and with various levels of stability. I have to assist many of these women to ensure they have their basic needs met, some do not have medical coverage to receive prenatal care. A few are at great housing risk, which is obviously very concerning that they and their soon to be born child may be without a warm and stable home. I hear countless stories of survival with abusive parents, mothers who are in relationships with abusive men or drug dealers. So many of my students have lost someone they love to a violent or untimely death.
Yet, most of them continue on, trying as best they can to have a normal and fun high school and adolescent experience. Most students are so determined to get their high school diploma, many the first in their family. All I can really do is listen, support and maybe try to advocate for what they need. I think this is the central core of doing my job well. I have to advocate that a young woman with multiple serious medical issues, now pregnant with a child with many medical issues of his own, should have the computer at home so she can continue with her education. I have to advocate with the teachers who don't know the full picture at home to not be so hard on the student who is a little disruptive that day, because he's just trying to get through the day without thinking about how the issues at home and on the street. I also have to advocate that in an urban, predominantly African-American school, there are students who deserve and need an after school club to feel safe about who they are, including their sexuality.
I feel proud and privileged to be a part of these young people's lives. Working to do whatever they need to support them in obtaining their goals is the least I can do. And I love it.
Winter coziness
“Winter is the time for comfort, for good food and warmth, for the touch of a friendly hand and for a talk beside the fire: it is the time for home.”
― Edith Sitwell
Oh, how I wish we had a fire place. I am tempted to have a roaring outdoor fire with lots of layers on, but I just don't think our chiminea would cut it. Otherwise, this quote suits my recent mood perfectly. With the bitter cold coming in and the sun is still not rising until after 7am, I am most content with a cup of coffee or tea, bundled up at home with the husband, the dogs (the cat watching nearby) and a good book. I keep saying I am going to get back into regular running mode as early prep for half marathon training (officially starting in January), but the cozy indoors are much more tempting.
― Edith Sitwell
Oh, how I wish we had a fire place. I am tempted to have a roaring outdoor fire with lots of layers on, but I just don't think our chiminea would cut it. Otherwise, this quote suits my recent mood perfectly. With the bitter cold coming in and the sun is still not rising until after 7am, I am most content with a cup of coffee or tea, bundled up at home with the husband, the dogs (the cat watching nearby) and a good book. I keep saying I am going to get back into regular running mode as early prep for half marathon training (officially starting in January), but the cozy indoors are much more tempting.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
New commitments
I am not sure if I can get this blog going. . . Partly because I have been so busy with work and life, when I have time to stop, I'd rather rest than write. Also because when I think about writing, it either feels like things I shouldn't post publicly or it is things I am not sure anyone would care about.
I haven't let go of this idea yet, I just need to keep at it to evolve it into what I want it to be. I realized today I haven't done a thing with it in coming on two months now. That's no good for a blog. So, what I have been up too- a new puppy entered our life. Buddy. He's the little white one next to Nia. It's been an adjustment for all of us. We love him and he quickly became a part of the family, but I forgot what a pain teaching a puppy can be. So that has consumed a lot of time. I look forward to when he learns what "come here" means and can go a week with an accident.
Work also kind of took over, but not in a negative way necessarily. I have established myself among certain teachers and students as the person they seek out for support. It feels good to know I have a large handful of kids that trust me and come see me regularly for support. Our school is in the process of being taken over by the state, which has led, it seems to me, many people to work harder than they ever did before. A large part of my responsibility as a school social worker is addressing attendance. We have so many students who are truant, this too consumes much of my week. It's actually the least favorite part for me. While I value the importance of attendance and want to address whatever may be going to keep a kid from school, I also sometimes feel like it takes me away from the kids there who are invested and actively seeking supports and an education. It's a tightrope.
In addition to my regular duties and roles, I have started a Girls on the Run program with middle school aged girls. I highly value this time and this program. I have about 8 girls who come consistently. The group cohesion we've developed and there responsiveness to what I am sharing with them is wonderful. We are expected to run a 5K at the end. I am not sure if the girls are moving quickly enough towards this, but I know they are getting many other benefits mentally, emotionally, physically. I have pushed myself to challenge them more and it proved successful. At my last meeting with them, I had them increase their laps from about 2 to 8 without any internal expectation they would go that far.
On the home front, in addition to Buddy, the husband and I are thinking and planning a lot about the next few years of our lives. This is nothing new really- we are both daydreamers. But it feels like we are now starting to put some of our dreams (individual and as a family) into action, or at least taking the steps to be able to put them into action. With the excitement of what we hope to come, I have been daydreaming/procrastinating/planning in excess about some of what we hope to accomplish.
In order to not let my daydreams and excessive planning get in the way of all I am doing now, I am using my yoga practice to help me feel more grounded, centered and at peace with each day, each week, as it comes. As a non religious person who still seeks some sort of spiritual grounding, I have finally found that in my yoga practice. I am attending about 5 times a week and hope to build up to daily. Although I may not attend daily classes, the ideas, the focus on calming my mind and developing my breath is remaining with me throughout each day.
So, with all these things, I should still be able to make time to write, practice creativity in other ways and accomplish some of the other floating goals. I just have to take action and do it. I plan to try again, so stay tuned.
I haven't let go of this idea yet, I just need to keep at it to evolve it into what I want it to be. I realized today I haven't done a thing with it in coming on two months now. That's no good for a blog. So, what I have been up too- a new puppy entered our life. Buddy. He's the little white one next to Nia. It's been an adjustment for all of us. We love him and he quickly became a part of the family, but I forgot what a pain teaching a puppy can be. So that has consumed a lot of time. I look forward to when he learns what "come here" means and can go a week with an accident. Work also kind of took over, but not in a negative way necessarily. I have established myself among certain teachers and students as the person they seek out for support. It feels good to know I have a large handful of kids that trust me and come see me regularly for support. Our school is in the process of being taken over by the state, which has led, it seems to me, many people to work harder than they ever did before. A large part of my responsibility as a school social worker is addressing attendance. We have so many students who are truant, this too consumes much of my week. It's actually the least favorite part for me. While I value the importance of attendance and want to address whatever may be going to keep a kid from school, I also sometimes feel like it takes me away from the kids there who are invested and actively seeking supports and an education. It's a tightrope.
In addition to my regular duties and roles, I have started a Girls on the Run program with middle school aged girls. I highly value this time and this program. I have about 8 girls who come consistently. The group cohesion we've developed and there responsiveness to what I am sharing with them is wonderful. We are expected to run a 5K at the end. I am not sure if the girls are moving quickly enough towards this, but I know they are getting many other benefits mentally, emotionally, physically. I have pushed myself to challenge them more and it proved successful. At my last meeting with them, I had them increase their laps from about 2 to 8 without any internal expectation they would go that far.
On the home front, in addition to Buddy, the husband and I are thinking and planning a lot about the next few years of our lives. This is nothing new really- we are both daydreamers. But it feels like we are now starting to put some of our dreams (individual and as a family) into action, or at least taking the steps to be able to put them into action. With the excitement of what we hope to come, I have been daydreaming/procrastinating/planning in excess about some of what we hope to accomplish.
In order to not let my daydreams and excessive planning get in the way of all I am doing now, I am using my yoga practice to help me feel more grounded, centered and at peace with each day, each week, as it comes. As a non religious person who still seeks some sort of spiritual grounding, I have finally found that in my yoga practice. I am attending about 5 times a week and hope to build up to daily. Although I may not attend daily classes, the ideas, the focus on calming my mind and developing my breath is remaining with me throughout each day.
So, with all these things, I should still be able to make time to write, practice creativity in other ways and accomplish some of the other floating goals. I just have to take action and do it. I plan to try again, so stay tuned.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Ten Tips for the Beginning Gardener- Notes to Self
- Start seeds inside. Yes, it does make a difference. You'll have produce sooner.
- Give tomatoes and squash A LOT of room. They may start small, but they definitely don't stay that way. In fact, maybe give squash it's own location in another part of the yard.
- Think more about what you eat- look to plant at least kale, celery, cukes next year. Keep the other good essentials- tomatoes, peppers, broccoli, other greens/lettuce, squash, herbs. This means. . . dig up more of the yard next year... or find other creative places to have food growing amongst the landscape.
- Weed twice a week, but leave the purslane because you can eat that too.
- Talk more to the plants. It's okay. No one can hear you but them.
- Have more stakes handy and know how to use them. Or find a better system for the ever expanding tomato plants.
- Make sure all poison ivy is cleared from the area before beginning a garden
- Don't go on vacation too long. You're garden will miss you and it will show.
- Plant more marigolds. They are a beautiful and functional border.
- Keep a log of watering to avoid thinking "I watered yesterday right? I don't think they need it today."
Thursday, August 25, 2011
A Children's Book for Dieting
I am amazed that there are so many people out there that still think it is okay to make girls be healthy and fit by scaring them into how they should be. And how they should be to these people, is often not what any body should be. I struggled with self- image and self-acceptance most of my life. From being bullied in junior high, to becoming way too thin on an unhealthy vegan diet in high school and all the in betweens in my 20s. It has taken my to my 30s to realize that as long as I am healthy, active and feel well, I am okay.
Now I can't post all the blame to society or peers for my past self-image difficulties, but I do not see how anyone can deny that outside sources play a part in how we as a society view girls and women. I know a hell of a lot of "thin" girls that are unhealthy because they consume sodas, processed foods and rarely exercise, but are able based on their make up to appear thin. But their organs are not happy on the inside. Why does it have to be about dieting and being thin? Why is the focus not on being HEALTHY and ACTIVE. These are the keys to longevity and happiness.
I rant a little because I recently read about Maggie Goes on a Diet and it infuriated me. I really hate the word diet- it should be Maggie changes her lifestyle, or anything else less demeaning. I found out about this book from Kathy of Happy Healthy Life who also posts at Family Kitchen. I agree with her sentiments. Why does the focus when communicating to young girls have to be focused on their size? Young girls are so incredibly sensitive to all feedback they receive. While at that developmental stage they are trying to assert their independence, they are also still craving the loving support and attention they had as little girls.
The focus for any child and any adult is that we want to eat well and live well. All this means is eating lots of whole and fresh foods and staying physically active, as well as finding a source to care for your self mentally and spiritually. It is not that hard. And if all girls were taught the strengths of these behaviors- we may not all be a thin magazine image but we will all be healthy on the inside and out.
Rant completed.
Now I can't post all the blame to society or peers for my past self-image difficulties, but I do not see how anyone can deny that outside sources play a part in how we as a society view girls and women. I know a hell of a lot of "thin" girls that are unhealthy because they consume sodas, processed foods and rarely exercise, but are able based on their make up to appear thin. But their organs are not happy on the inside. Why does it have to be about dieting and being thin? Why is the focus not on being HEALTHY and ACTIVE. These are the keys to longevity and happiness.
I rant a little because I recently read about Maggie Goes on a Diet and it infuriated me. I really hate the word diet- it should be Maggie changes her lifestyle, or anything else less demeaning. I found out about this book from Kathy of Happy Healthy Life who also posts at Family Kitchen. I agree with her sentiments. Why does the focus when communicating to young girls have to be focused on their size? Young girls are so incredibly sensitive to all feedback they receive. While at that developmental stage they are trying to assert their independence, they are also still craving the loving support and attention they had as little girls.
The focus for any child and any adult is that we want to eat well and live well. All this means is eating lots of whole and fresh foods and staying physically active, as well as finding a source to care for your self mentally and spiritually. It is not that hard. And if all girls were taught the strengths of these behaviors- we may not all be a thin magazine image but we will all be healthy on the inside and out.
Rant completed.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
The fun part of the roller coaster
There is this roller coaster at Cedar Point. I've only been there once, a month before the husband and I got married. But I wanted to go on this ride over and over. The husband still brings it up any time we talk with someone about Cedar Point. At the one high point of the coaster, just as it begins to drop- the climax- I laughed the most giddy school girl laugh apparently he has ever heard. No screams, no fear, just unadulterated joy.
There are times when life just feels like that. Things seem to be falling in line just as they should, marriage and relationships feel strong and life is just good. The husband is off to San Diego tomorrow to visit old friends and I start my job as a social worker for one of the large inner city high schools in our city. I am so excited about this job- my dream job. Sure, the state is threatening to take over this very school and that could put my job at risk yet again (I was laid off last year and re-hired). But right now I have a heightened sense of optimism. We are both doing what we want with our careers, and the husband with his education. We have come to a stage in our partnership that we've worked through any individual issues that may effect us as a couple. I have found peace and gratitude in starting a regular yoga practice, improving my gardening skills and finding a way to be more self accepting than I have been before.
I know there will always be difficulties ahead in our partnership, our marriage, our lives, but for right now I am savoring this time. I have no delusions that we still need to work at what we have to keep it going this well, but I also feel a sense of relieve that I can relinquish old anxieties and just enjoy life.
There are times when life just feels like that. Things seem to be falling in line just as they should, marriage and relationships feel strong and life is just good. The husband is off to San Diego tomorrow to visit old friends and I start my job as a social worker for one of the large inner city high schools in our city. I am so excited about this job- my dream job. Sure, the state is threatening to take over this very school and that could put my job at risk yet again (I was laid off last year and re-hired). But right now I have a heightened sense of optimism. We are both doing what we want with our careers, and the husband with his education. We have come to a stage in our partnership that we've worked through any individual issues that may effect us as a couple. I have found peace and gratitude in starting a regular yoga practice, improving my gardening skills and finding a way to be more self accepting than I have been before.
I know there will always be difficulties ahead in our partnership, our marriage, our lives, but for right now I am savoring this time. I have no delusions that we still need to work at what we have to keep it going this well, but I also feel a sense of relieve that I can relinquish old anxieties and just enjoy life.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Making Room for Meditation
I am really bad at mediation. I just do not make time for it. When I do, I have a hard time getting grounded, centered and staying in that moment. But I think I just make it way too hard on myself. Really it is such a healthy practice with many benefits, while also being one of the most simple practices you can do for your health.
My goal is to try to incorporate it more in the evenings. I have found a wonderful yoga practice that I am trying to go to at least five times a week. I find that I am able to center myself in that practice. It is a form of meditation and I certainly am able to focus on my breath, clear my head and focus on perhaps one specific intention for that day. If I can do it there, I should be able to do it at home. I just have to make room for it.
My goal is to try to incorporate it more in the evenings. I have found a wonderful yoga practice that I am trying to go to at least five times a week. I find that I am able to center myself in that practice. It is a form of meditation and I certainly am able to focus on my breath, clear my head and focus on perhaps one specific intention for that day. If I can do it there, I should be able to do it at home. I just have to make room for it.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
A tasty looking recipe from one of my favorite blogs
I love 101 Cookbooks. Her food photography is beautiful and all her recipes look delicious. Any I have tried have been wonderful. This no bake chocolate cake looks pretty awesome when you get those chocolate cravings. I emailed her about the buttermilk and she said I should be able to substitute coconut milk instead.
Yum.
Yum.
Friday, July 1, 2011
My Market Salad
The Therapist Goes to Therapy
I've always been resistant to counseling for myself. It's quite the hypocrisy- the gal that preaches how therapy can benefit everyone but doesn't go herself. I had a barrier that as a therapist myself, I shouldn't need therapy. There's nothing major in my life that brings about the need for therapy, but there are a few walls that I have been unable to break through in regards to my running, fitness and self confidence, so I figured it couldn't hurt. I am also hoping it will help me in my communications in relationships, mostly my marriage.
I went for the first time last night and it was fabulous. There are certain things I just don't feel comfortable talking with others about because I know how some people in my life might perceive the information, or share it with other people. With this therapist, who I liked very much, I was able to be completely open without concern. She also had some very good reflection skills, which were very validating. I already feel so much lighter today and calmer. I have goals in mind that we established and I am eager to get them underway.
Now I think I can even more confidently speak to the benefits of counseling. I think even those of us who are functioning reasonably well, all have things we should let go of, move through. Having a skilled, external resource to help do that is nothing but a healthy choice.
I went for the first time last night and it was fabulous. There are certain things I just don't feel comfortable talking with others about because I know how some people in my life might perceive the information, or share it with other people. With this therapist, who I liked very much, I was able to be completely open without concern. She also had some very good reflection skills, which were very validating. I already feel so much lighter today and calmer. I have goals in mind that we established and I am eager to get them underway.
Now I think I can even more confidently speak to the benefits of counseling. I think even those of us who are functioning reasonably well, all have things we should let go of, move through. Having a skilled, external resource to help do that is nothing but a healthy choice.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Links
I posted some links of sites I visit frequently or I include in my aggregate. I plan to add more, as well as links to non profit agencies and causes I support. But for now I have to get ready to go set up this week's farmers' market!
Letting go of fish
I have made a lot of good strides to going back to vegetarianism (I have been off and on for 16 years). Now being a little older, I am able to make good decisions about how to be a healthy vegetarian and have what in my opinion is the optimal diet for me, but also for animals well being and for the well being of our planet. I've allowed fish to be a back up plan- when I am stuck for options to eat, I will order a fish dish or tell family that is the one thing I might eat when I am at their homes.
I need to make the next step and omit fish. I think mentally I am transitioning to being vegan for life, it's just a gradual process. This video helped remind me this morning. Warning: May not want little ones around when you watch, it is explicit.
I need to make the next step and omit fish. I think mentally I am transitioning to being vegan for life, it's just a gradual process. This video helped remind me this morning. Warning: May not want little ones around when you watch, it is explicit.
This article from The Atlantic also brings home the global and environmental considerations of eating fish, as well as the produce that we buy. I take a lot of pride in knowing where my food comes from. Shouldn't I be doing the same with fish? Really if I'm not, I'm quite the hypocrite.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
My love affair with Mason Jars
I use Mason Jars for everything. Canning and keeping food, of course. I also store my leftover green juices/smoothies in them, my dry herbs and seasonings, I even use them to store our cotton and qtips in the bathroom.
I also use a large old one to keep all my grandfather's match books he collected around the world while in the military. (That's another Ball Jar with Epsom Salts next to it).
My love affair with Mason Jars extended to our wedding, where we used them for a very economical and simply lovely aisle decor. The hydrangeas we got from a neighbor's back yard!
Today I have found a new joy in my jar use. The thing I use them most for is drinking. But, I have a tendency to fill one jar with water and then later wonder if the jar I find as I am moving about the house is the same one I've been drinking from or if it's yesterdays. . . Cleaning up our glasses regularly would probably be just as easy. But today I've started writing the day of the week, so I know this is my drinking glass for the day. A little silly, but way better than days of the week underwear!
I also use a large old one to keep all my grandfather's match books he collected around the world while in the military. (That's another Ball Jar with Epsom Salts next to it).
My love affair with Mason Jars extended to our wedding, where we used them for a very economical and simply lovely aisle decor. The hydrangeas we got from a neighbor's back yard!
Purple tomatoes
Before I started volunteering with my local farmers' market, I knew nothing of heirloom tomatoes or tomatoes that are purple! That's one of the many joys of buying from your local farmer and shopping the local markets. You'd be surprised how much you don't know about fruits and vegetables and the many unusual varieties available.
I'm growing my own this year, but until they come in more, I'm eating on these multi colored lovelies from one of the farmer's at the Wednesday evening market I work at. Lycopene overload!
I'm growing my own this year, but until they come in more, I'm eating on these multi colored lovelies from one of the farmer's at the Wednesday evening market I work at. Lycopene overload!
Day 23? I think I was done about Day 19.
I am done with the Crazy Sexy Diet Cleanse. Officially. Unofficially, I am still eating and living for the most part like I am on the cleanse. I cheated a few times- a couple occasions of eating fish and three or so occasions of drinking a little red wine. But otherwise, I think I did well and can pat myself on the back. I have avoided caffeine, sugar, white stuff and kept my gluten intake to a minimum. I am gradually becoming a guru of green juices and smoothies, even without owning a juicer. I also lost 15 pounds in a month.
My plan is now to stick to a vegan diet, but I can't yet call myself vegan because I know a little goat cheese and some seafood still creeps into my diet now and then. I am feeling great being alcohol abstinent and plan to continue to keep the drinking to a minimum as well. But I am not going to beat myself up if I enjoy a good wine or beer on the weekend.
The continued focus is on continuously working toward overall improved well being. I continue to exercise daily and working (or struggling) to take time for myself during this summer break to focus on the home and my own interests, such as the garden, researching for the upcoming school year and exploring mental well being through meditation and other practices. I fell short on things like dry brushing and meditation for the cleanse, so I am going to try to work on making these types of self care activities a habit.
I've given up on using my summer break for any major home improvement projects. My involvement with my community farmers' market and our farm dinner fundraiser took up most of June. July I'm trying to save for me and family. Before I know it we'll be back to school and I have a big task ahead of me. I'm sure the blog focus will turn more towards this once August rolls around.
My plan is now to stick to a vegan diet, but I can't yet call myself vegan because I know a little goat cheese and some seafood still creeps into my diet now and then. I am feeling great being alcohol abstinent and plan to continue to keep the drinking to a minimum as well. But I am not going to beat myself up if I enjoy a good wine or beer on the weekend.
The continued focus is on continuously working toward overall improved well being. I continue to exercise daily and working (or struggling) to take time for myself during this summer break to focus on the home and my own interests, such as the garden, researching for the upcoming school year and exploring mental well being through meditation and other practices. I fell short on things like dry brushing and meditation for the cleanse, so I am going to try to work on making these types of self care activities a habit.
I've given up on using my summer break for any major home improvement projects. My involvement with my community farmers' market and our farm dinner fundraiser took up most of June. July I'm trying to save for me and family. Before I know it we'll be back to school and I have a big task ahead of me. I'm sure the blog focus will turn more towards this once August rolls around.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Turning the School Around
Earlier this week I went to retreat for the school where I work. The school I will be working at this year is a Turn Around School. This essentially means that the school has not met the state's established standards for a period of consecutive years. We are now at the point that if there is not improvement, the state could take over our school, and/or it could become a charter school. One aspect of change that was discussed was an 8 step instructional process. While this applies primarily to teachers, it impacts the whole school. I was told that I could be engaged in a period where I am assisting a remediation of sorts with students who need the extra assistance. Frankly I need to learn more about this. I think coming from a social work paradigm but living in an educational world, I don't fully get how this process will be put into practice.
What I did get from the retreat is that I am happy with our new administration team. I think they are all very motivated and have significant strengths to improve the school. I also saw and spoke with many teachers who appear motivated to challenge themselves to make changes and work together to make the school more successful. We are making very significant changes, including splitting the school by gender, changes to the schedule, changes to instructional methods and increased engagement of community partners. I am beginning to do some research on how to better engage parents and families and I'm excited to be proactive about that aspect.
The retreat was an alert that this will not be an easy year. It could very well be another school year where I have a pink slip towards the end of it (like I did this past school year). I know it will be some late hours and hard work, but I am excited to be where I am at. I am excited to be a part of facilitating change and success. The kids at my school are awesome and they deserve it.
What I did get from the retreat is that I am happy with our new administration team. I think they are all very motivated and have significant strengths to improve the school. I also saw and spoke with many teachers who appear motivated to challenge themselves to make changes and work together to make the school more successful. We are making very significant changes, including splitting the school by gender, changes to the schedule, changes to instructional methods and increased engagement of community partners. I am beginning to do some research on how to better engage parents and families and I'm excited to be proactive about that aspect.
The retreat was an alert that this will not be an easy year. It could very well be another school year where I have a pink slip towards the end of it (like I did this past school year). I know it will be some late hours and hard work, but I am excited to be where I am at. I am excited to be a part of facilitating change and success. The kids at my school are awesome and they deserve it.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
First Fast
I am doing my first liquid fast today. Technically it should be tomorrow. But, it's pouring down rain so we've opted out of starting our half marathon training today. Since today is now a self imposed rest day, I decided it was the best day to fast. I truly forgot to do it last Sunday because we were coming back from the family visit, but I did remain on the cleanse diet.
Starting off with a big glass of green juice. This is already about half way gone.
It's a mix of kale, celery, cucumber, apple, ginger and mint that I blended and then strained through mesh cloth. I don't own a juicer. I also added some aloe vera juice afterward. You'd be amazed how great that green goodness can taste.
Visiting some friends out of town today, so must plan ahead with a smoothie for lunch. The whole day is liquid- juice, smoothie, water and green or herbal tea. The husband is doing it with me. We'll see how it goes!
Starting off with a big glass of green juice. This is already about half way gone.
It's a mix of kale, celery, cucumber, apple, ginger and mint that I blended and then strained through mesh cloth. I don't own a juicer. I also added some aloe vera juice afterward. You'd be amazed how great that green goodness can taste. Visiting some friends out of town today, so must plan ahead with a smoothie for lunch. The whole day is liquid- juice, smoothie, water and green or herbal tea. The husband is doing it with me. We'll see how it goes!
10 Things I Love
Continuing with the 21 day cleanse, one recent day asked to focus on the things you love, as a way to bring focus to the positive things in our lives. Here's my initial list, I could add many other things.
1. Snuggling with our dog
2. The fluffy bits of the cat when she lets me pet her.
3. Seeing my garden grow.
4. The way the husband pushes his feet against my feet in the morning.
5. The way I feel after a good workout.
6. My dad's random calls to say hello when he's travelling in the car.
7. Making lists
8. Mingling at the farmers' market
9. Making kids laugh
10. Listening to NPR podcasts or loud music while I do chores.
1. Snuggling with our dog
2. The fluffy bits of the cat when she lets me pet her.
3. Seeing my garden grow.
4. The way the husband pushes his feet against my feet in the morning.
5. The way I feel after a good workout.
6. My dad's random calls to say hello when he's travelling in the car.
7. Making lists
8. Mingling at the farmers' market
9. Making kids laugh
10. Listening to NPR podcasts or loud music while I do chores.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Developing ritual and meaning
After a nice family visit with my husband's side of the family and recent discussions at home and with friends, I've been thinking more about rituals and what give each of meaning, individually and as families. This article shares a few ideas for creating family rituals, but I think there are many other things that could be added to the list.
One of my fondest memories of childhood is reading books with my mom. It was a ritual that we read every night before bed. When I got to around 6 or so, we started reading chapter books together like Stuart Little and Pippi Longstocking. I think these times were so valuable for me and my mom's relationship, but also engrained my love of books and reading.
As I got older, obviously rituals change. We of course have the holiday rituals of favorite family dishes and activities. But those have changed too as my brother and I have gotten older. The focus is now on my brother's children and creating rituals and memories for them. One ritual I do miss is when my parent's and I lived in the same city, I would go over for dinner every Sunday and spend time with them.
What are rituals that you think are important to foster growth for children or rituals that have important meaning to you?
One of my fondest memories of childhood is reading books with my mom. It was a ritual that we read every night before bed. When I got to around 6 or so, we started reading chapter books together like Stuart Little and Pippi Longstocking. I think these times were so valuable for me and my mom's relationship, but also engrained my love of books and reading.
As I got older, obviously rituals change. We of course have the holiday rituals of favorite family dishes and activities. But those have changed too as my brother and I have gotten older. The focus is now on my brother's children and creating rituals and memories for them. One ritual I do miss is when my parent's and I lived in the same city, I would go over for dinner every Sunday and spend time with them.
What are rituals that you think are important to foster growth for children or rituals that have important meaning to you?
Thank you cards
I love Sara Cotner. She is so thoughtful and creative. I like this idea she has for her own Thank You Card Station. I don't think I could manage to make an area like that in our house, but have been meaning to organize the greeting card drawer at our desk. Perhaps that will be added to this week's agenda. I definitely have some thank you cards to write.
Bending the rules
My husband and I went to visit some of his family this weekend. His mother is Korean and we were all visiting his Korean Aunt and Uncle. Never have I experienced such hospitality and warmth when staying at someone's house. They had a lovely home with an amazing large backyard and garden. Our dog was welcome with open arms to join in the fun, she loved that yard.
Needless to say, I had to bend the rules on my cleanse. I have been trying to keep things highly raw and vegan. I kept the raw, but this weekend with about six different types of fish. She made a large plate of sashimi, california rolls, crab, and there were so many kinds of amazing kimchi (which does fall within my rules). A) It would have felt rude to refuse this wonderful meal and B) I had never had a meal like that before and had to experience. So I didn't feel too guilty during, especially since raw fish is a reasonably healthy rule breaker. But I allowed myself to feel bad about it yesterday. Oh, did I mention the wine that was placed before me this weekend? That was difficult to refuse too, but drank in much more moderation than in the past.
Back on the horse today. Have a run planned, then my strength workout and yoga. This afternoon, I plan to work in the yard. There's a mulberry plant trying to take over my vegetable garden and I am about to declare war.
Needless to say, I had to bend the rules on my cleanse. I have been trying to keep things highly raw and vegan. I kept the raw, but this weekend with about six different types of fish. She made a large plate of sashimi, california rolls, crab, and there were so many kinds of amazing kimchi (which does fall within my rules). A) It would have felt rude to refuse this wonderful meal and B) I had never had a meal like that before and had to experience. So I didn't feel too guilty during, especially since raw fish is a reasonably healthy rule breaker. But I allowed myself to feel bad about it yesterday. Oh, did I mention the wine that was placed before me this weekend? That was difficult to refuse too, but drank in much more moderation than in the past.
Back on the horse today. Have a run planned, then my strength workout and yoga. This afternoon, I plan to work in the yard. There's a mulberry plant trying to take over my vegetable garden and I am about to declare war.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Keeping Kids Active in the Summer
I thought this gave a few good suggestions for summer activities for children with ADHD, but really all children. There is a significant rise in ADHD, although I believe it is often more of an environmental diagnosis, rather than a biophysical.
Regardless, I think it's important to keep young children active during the school breaks, for the physical and mental well being. I think all children have some difficulty retaining academics during long breaks and benefit from enrichment activities that help maintain and expand that knowledge throughout the summer.
Regardless, I think it's important to keep young children active during the school breaks, for the physical and mental well being. I think all children have some difficulty retaining academics during long breaks and benefit from enrichment activities that help maintain and expand that knowledge throughout the summer.
Cayenne Overdose
Somebody put way too much cayenne in my water this morning. I think it was the cat, she looks pretty guilty.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
21 Day Cleanse, Day 4
Continuing with my Crazy Sexy Diet 21 Day Cleanse, things are going well. I did have a small bite of my husband's crab cake when he visited me at the farmer's market last night, but other wise I have kept to the plan. I am working out daily and already down 4 lbs this week. I think just the lack of beer drinking is making a huge difference. So far I don't miss beer or wine, my biggest vices, but I know temptation will be there at some point in these 21 days.
One of the hardest things for me to include is meditation. I've managed to get that in once in the past three days. I'm making it a goal to get that in today. I do like to think of yoga as semi-meditation, when I can really clear my head and focus on my breathing through poses. But to just be still with myself is going to take a little more practice.
Otherwise, I have made a habit of dry brushing, my diet is highly raw, green and alkalized, I'm drinking loads of water and some green and herbal tea. It's a little time consuming with planning and making sure I am covering all my bases, but as the days roll on I'm more comfortable and it gradually becomes more habitual.
I know the upcoming weekend is going to be a challenge. We are going to visit some of the husband's family and I know there will be lots of good food. I have a feeling out of respect (and desire) I won't stick completely to vegan diet but I will still be mindful of what and how much I consume.
I really like the "prayer" for today:
Please help me to locate my inner rebel. May I become a trailblazing leader, not a follower. When I stand in my fully actualized glory, I encourage others to do the same.
One of the hardest things for me to include is meditation. I've managed to get that in once in the past three days. I'm making it a goal to get that in today. I do like to think of yoga as semi-meditation, when I can really clear my head and focus on my breathing through poses. But to just be still with myself is going to take a little more practice.
Otherwise, I have made a habit of dry brushing, my diet is highly raw, green and alkalized, I'm drinking loads of water and some green and herbal tea. It's a little time consuming with planning and making sure I am covering all my bases, but as the days roll on I'm more comfortable and it gradually becomes more habitual.
I know the upcoming weekend is going to be a challenge. We are going to visit some of the husband's family and I know there will be lots of good food. I have a feeling out of respect (and desire) I won't stick completely to vegan diet but I will still be mindful of what and how much I consume.
I really like the "prayer" for today:
Please help me to locate my inner rebel. May I become a trailblazing leader, not a follower. When I stand in my fully actualized glory, I encourage others to do the same.
Farmers' Market
I'm a volunteer for my local community's farmers' market. This is my second year, but I have taken a much more active role this year, coordinating much of our Wednesday night market and coordinating a farm dinner event later this month. Since I finished the school year and started summer break last week, this has seemed like a part time, almost full time job. But being there for the market last night, in 95 degree heat, it felt well worth it.
I believe strongly in buying locally sourced and grown products. Being vegetarian, I'm of course seeking a lot of good variety of vegetables, and there's no place else to find them but a farmers' market. One of the strongest draws though is the sense of community created. So often these days, there is little or no sense of community, or neighborly connection. Everyone goes on about their busy lives and too many live to work, rather than working to live. At the market, there are the regulars that come through, stop to visit, let me pet their dogs, chat about their lives or just how hot it is in mid-June. All the vendors that participate in our market have a story- one that often entails significantly hard work and dedication. They are passionate about what they do, what they grow and how they grow it. That passion flows in abundance to our customers and creates connections to be found no where else.
I believe strongly in buying locally sourced and grown products. Being vegetarian, I'm of course seeking a lot of good variety of vegetables, and there's no place else to find them but a farmers' market. One of the strongest draws though is the sense of community created. So often these days, there is little or no sense of community, or neighborly connection. Everyone goes on about their busy lives and too many live to work, rather than working to live. At the market, there are the regulars that come through, stop to visit, let me pet their dogs, chat about their lives or just how hot it is in mid-June. All the vendors that participate in our market have a story- one that often entails significantly hard work and dedication. They are passionate about what they do, what they grow and how they grow it. That passion flows in abundance to our customers and creates connections to be found no where else.
Monday, June 6, 2011
21 Day Cleanse, Day 1
Today I am starting Kris Carr's 21 Day Cleanse from her book Crazy Sexy Diet. I'm vegetarian and have attempted veganism multiple times, most recently last year for about six months. My weakness is cheese. I really like cheese. I also eat seafood on occasion. This cleanse is a vegan diet, but the focus broadens to encourage limiting alcohol, sugar, caffeine, processed foods and maximizing raw, whole foods. She also encourages regular exercise, mediation, and emotional self care. All things I believe but do not practice consistently.
Day 1 has gone well. I'm a little emotionally drained from other things, so I think my energy level would be better if not for that. I forgot to meditate and dry brush, must do that tomorrow. But I did run, complete a weight/strength routine and do an hour of yoga so I got the exercise in! Food has been mostly fruit and green smoothies today. Need to eat a little more at lunch tomorrow, I think. Tonight's dinner will be a quinoa "Buddha bowl."
Today's affirmation from Kris: I am capable, confident, intelligent, resilient, and in charge. Health and happiness are my birthrights and I accept with gratitude.
Yes, I am all those things. And I am ready to claim my rights.
Day 1 has gone well. I'm a little emotionally drained from other things, so I think my energy level would be better if not for that. I forgot to meditate and dry brush, must do that tomorrow. But I did run, complete a weight/strength routine and do an hour of yoga so I got the exercise in! Food has been mostly fruit and green smoothies today. Need to eat a little more at lunch tomorrow, I think. Tonight's dinner will be a quinoa "Buddha bowl."
Today's affirmation from Kris: I am capable, confident, intelligent, resilient, and in charge. Health and happiness are my birthrights and I accept with gratitude.
Yes, I am all those things. And I am ready to claim my rights.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
The blog name inspiration
"One final paragraph of advice. Do not burn yourself out. Be as I am-a reluctant enthusiast... a part time crusader, a half-hearted fanatic. Save the other half of yourselves and your lives for pleasure and adventure. It is not enough to fight for the land; it is even more important to enjoy it. While you can. While it is still there. So get out there and mess around with your friends, ramble out yonder and explore the forests, encounter the grizz, climb the mountains. Run the rivers, breathe deep of that yet sweet and lucid air, sit quietly for a while and contemplate the precious stillness, that lovely, mysterious and awesome space. Enjoy yourselves, keep your brain in your head and your head firmly attached to your body, the body active and alive, and I promise you this much: I promise you this one sweet victory over our enemies, over those desk bound people with their hearts in a safe deposit box and their eyes hypnotized by desk calculators. I promise you this: you will outlive the bastards."
Edward Abbey
I love this quote from Edward Abbey, from a speech he made in the late 70s. I am a social worker for urban schools, volunteer for local food and farm organizations, an environmentalist, hugger and high fiver. I believe strongly in fighting for the people and things I believe in, but I also believe in "saving the other half" of myself for pleasure and enjoying my life. I try to do this by enjoying art, music, books, cooking, gardening, running, yoga and photography, as well as enjoying time with my husband, family and friends.
This blog is going to be an amalgamation of all those things.
Edward Abbey
I love this quote from Edward Abbey, from a speech he made in the late 70s. I am a social worker for urban schools, volunteer for local food and farm organizations, an environmentalist, hugger and high fiver. I believe strongly in fighting for the people and things I believe in, but I also believe in "saving the other half" of myself for pleasure and enjoying my life. I try to do this by enjoying art, music, books, cooking, gardening, running, yoga and photography, as well as enjoying time with my husband, family and friends.
This blog is going to be an amalgamation of all those things.
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